I've written in a journal for Owen every single day for the last 8 months. Someday I want him to look back and hopefully have some sort of idea of how much I love him. Here's a recent entry I made for him:
'You are my sunshine. My love bug. My boo boo, sweat pea, best friend. I will never ever be able to describe how much I love you. When I wake up, my first thought is "Owen. Are you okay? I already miss you. Oh how I love that little boy." All day while I'm at work I'm in physical pain because I want to be home with you so bad. Driving home I wonder if you had a good day and I can't wait to see that sweet smile that you always give me the second I walk through that door. At night, I lay awake hoping you're safe and wanting to just cuddle with you. I love you more than anything and would do anything for you. I love you handsome! Love, Mom.'
I never imagined that motherhood would be this fantastic. I am so grateful every day for this perfect little boy that I was blessed with. Being a mommy is the best job in the world.