gardner village

a couple of girls from work and i decided to go to gardner village for the day to have lunch and see the witches they have on display.  i have never been to gardner village before, so it was fun to walk around and go into all the shops.  i might just have to go back to buy a few things!  after we were done at gardner village, we stopped at this adorable little fruit stand, which also happened to be by an antique store called 'home again'. i bought a really old telephone (don't judge.) and a turquoise mason jar.  basically, it was the best fall autumn day ever and i wish it would last 3 months instead of 2 weeks.

also, remember how miles is scared of everything?  it's getting really old.  really fast.  because, i've been so excited for him to grow up and see new things and it's sort of a bummer when everything we take him to just makes him scared and mad.  so i'm crossing my fingers he outgrows this soon.  and in the meantime, i'm trying not to force him to do things he doesn't want to and hoping that he gets curious on his own.

pumpkinland

we made our 2nd annual trip to pumpkinland this week.  remember last year when miles was itty bitty and couldn't even walk yet? i can't believe how much he has changed in just a year.  we walked around and looked at all the pumpkins, then we went to the corn maze and walked through the play area.  all miles wanted to look at was the turkeys though.  he is going through this weird stage where he is seriously afraid of everything!! is this normal? you can see he is freaking out in a few of the pictures. but at least he liked the turkeys and the plants?!

its autumn time!

we are loving this fall weather! i seriously think the month of october is my favorite month.  i took miles for a little drive up the canyon to see the leaves, and thank goodness! because it snowed the next day.  yes, the first week of october came with snow.  he wasn't interested in the leaves, so he played in the mud while i snapped pictures. and he pretty much knows by now to ignore mom when she has her camera out. oh well.

and then i had to buy some apples. because they were in a brown paper bag. and i can't resist pretty apples in a brown paper bag. miles kind of likes them too...

yet another random post.

if you know me at all, you know that i make lists a mile long.  my fridge has one stuck to it right now.  it has a to-do for today, this week, photography, and decorating. and then a blank spot for me to write whatever else comes along. and then there are notebooks and scrap papers and post-its scattered all over the place.  better photography skills, better photoshop skills, better design skills.

my mind is craving more information.  there's so many thoughts and ideas racing and so many things i want to learn.  and there is a fine line between being inspired by other photographers and designers and being jealous and feeling completely no hope that i will ever be what i want to be. as good as i want to be. you know?  i think the internet is a glorious thing. and let's be honest. it has so many resources.  i don't have the time or means to go to school right now. i need to be working and i need to be a mom.  and so i can do research galore online.  but i can also get carried away.  because there's a never ending amount of things i want to learn.  but i don't want miles to look back on his childhood and think that his momma never played with him.  and so i end up doing all this research after i get home from work. which is midnight. which is unhealthy. because i should be sleeping. basically i'm searching for some sort of balance in my life. and its hard. because i'm not a very patient person. i want everything now.  i want to run a crazy successful business NOW.  but i understand it takes years.  i understand that the process of learning isn't something that happens over night.  and i have to realize how far i've come since even two years ago.

and now, completely off topic. but all i want to do is buy the new jack's mannequin cd and take a little road trip to logan while its blaring through my speakers and out my open windows.  i don't blare my music anymore. i grew up. i have a child. he doesn't like it.  but do you sometimes ever miss your old self?  like the person you were when you were learning who you were? ha. does that even make sense?  independent and free and completely spontaneous.  logan and jack's mannequin.  those two things were my life back then.  those few years when i learned about myself and learned who i was. what i wanted. what i didn't want. it was hard. and it was fun. and it was completely necessary to build my life now.  and speaking of my life now?  it's perfect.  well, not perfect, obviously.  but its perfect for us. perfect, if i remember that all i really need is my family. and these 2 guys are my world.

we took some family pictures this weekend.  miles is becoming quite the independent boy.  and he wants nothing to do with the camera.  so of course, he's not looking at the camera.  but it's good enough for now. :)

neon boneyard

i'm basically a year behind.
you have missed a year of my life.
how does that make you feel?
anyway, we just celebrated our third anniversary.
and we are boring and couldn't think of anything better (or cheaper) to do,
so we went to las vegas.
mind you, i've been to vegas probably 23 times and i'm all vegased out.
i think that was the last time we will be going there,
especially since it just keeps getting dirtier and grosser (is that a word?) and i never want my children to step foot in such a disgusting place.
anyway, we did find one place that was worth the trip.
it was probably my favorite thing we did there.
it's called the neon boneyard and it's basically a pile of old neon signs.
ok so no one else probably thinks this is cool except me.
but they tell you all about the signs and where they came from and all about las vegas and what it was like before it was the vegas it is now.
besides melting in the 120 degree weather, we really liked it.
on to the pictures...

have you missed me?

i think i fell off the face of the blogging planet.
it's been 2 months, folks.
and truth be told, i didn't really miss it.
mostly because i had nothing important to say.
and truth be told again, i still don't.
my life has become completely uneventful and monotonous.
its work, and sleep, and miles, and photography, and maybe sometimes i get to see wade.
i have more pictures on my computer of other people's families than i do of my own family.
i want to jump in the car and go on a road trip, but i can't, because wade went and grew up without me.
he has a real job now.
which means "vacation time" is required to do spontaneous road trips like we used to.
and he used it all up on scout camp and going to court for a ticket that was meant for another car (are you confused about that? because so am i. the ticket part. not the scout camp part.)
ANYWAY
i'm bored.
i need some adventure.
but i'm too ocd for adventure right now.
there are too many closets to organize and cupboards to sort through, and clothes to di and wine crate bookshelves to re-do and computer files to sort through and basically my mind cannot concentrate on anything like blogging when it's too busy sorting through a to do list. and wade thinks i'm a little crazy when i can't relax because there's clutter laying around. he tells me to ignore it. but there's no such thing as relaxing to me, if part of my brain knows there a pile of junk hiding in the corner (but i get that from you, right mom?).  which is why this blog post makes no sense and it's just a random dump of words.

but i want to come back.
i want to write again.
and i will.
as soon as i'm not searching for every spare moment possible to nap.